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I wish I had a picture to show you Grace's first steps. (I can't find the digital camera and if I did I can't find the cord that connects it to the computer) She took 3 very good steps today between Jon and I. It's funny how much more cautious she is compared to Elijah at her age. Elijah just got up one day and walked and she's taking a few everyday. I'm glad they are not the same people. Actually, I'm not too anxious for her to walk because then I'll be chasing two children at church and trying to keep two children in the pew. Lovely! Sounds like fun!
I'm going to visit Joshua on Tuesay. I got so excited today thinking about it that I started feeling sick to my stomach, actaully it was more like my colon area. There will be alot of my reader that will not understand that, infact I hardly understand it myself, but that's what happens when I get really excited. Anyways, it will be so nice to spend some quality time with my bro and his wife. I feel like I hardly know the guy! This is a picture of me and the kids very excited that Mom and Grace get to see Uncle Josh and Anut Becky. (EJ's not coming but he'll smile about anything)

Melissa Brodie

Today preparing for supper I was standing at my kitchen sink husking corn. I was thinking about being eight years old and being at Melissa Brodie's house for a full day of fun. Jean asked us to husk the corn for supper and we got a big paper bag and sat on the side porch and tore off the husks. One of those jobs that few children complain about. I don't know what brought me back to that memory. I've husked corn on many other occasions and under many other circumstances, but today I felt reminecent of my younger years. I started thinking about all the people who have been in my life over the years, people I have loved and cared deeply for, like Melissa. People who are apart of all my memories and sadly people who I haven't heard from in years. Not of their doing alone. Funny how life goes. One day someone can be the center of your universe and you're thinking, " I will never have another friend like Melissa Brodie, we'll be friends forever." and the next(well10 years later) you don't even know if their married with kids. You know though, all is not lost! I still have the memories. And a friend made in the heart is a friend for a life time. I still hold Melissa and our memories dear to my heart.

So what does this have to do with corn? I have no idea. I'm crazy like that I guess. One minute its husking corn and the next I'm rambling about long lost friends.

Something of me

I'm feeling like I want to say something but I don't know what to say. My whole life I have taken up a pen (or lap top). I remember one year as a camper at Camp Livingstone journaling. I still have that journal. In high school I wrote in my diary to a girl I imagined up. I can't remember her name. I worte about how much I hated school, my struggle to be a 'good' christian girl, my deep crushes, and my general thoughts about anything and everything. In college I met God for the first time in an intamate, exciting way. I wrote down everything I learned from the Word, all the quotes that inspired me, and my prayers. Those journals are percious to me. And now as a wife, mother of two and pet owner, I feel like I want to write something down. I want to be me, not a wife, mother, housekeeper, pet owner, or meal maker. I want to write because its who amie is. It helps me feel normal again, like I still have a bit of me left. I'm sounding very morbid, like I don't enjoy all of the new things that I do and have become. That's not the case. Its just that sometimes I want to remember plain old amie.
so I guess this really isn't about writting. Its about rediscovering me. Allowing myself apart of myself, that isn't about everything else...does this make any sense. One day i hope I can knit, and read and play my guitar and journal (more regularly) and anything else that I enjoy. Right now I guess I'll blog when I get the chance. (What a strange word, "blog")
Thanks Lord for all the people and blessings in my little world. I'm better everyday for all of it.
Help me remember that!
The end!